WHEN WILL IT BE TIME? 1 YEAR AGO...

Exactly 1 year ago, we completed a huge milestone with Halainah's adoption. Our Dossier (paperwork) was finally completed after 6 months of filling out forms, notarizing forms, obtaining state certifications and authentications, going to doctors appointments, fingerprints, police clearance, I could go on forever. Wow was that exhausting! But what a remarkable feeling once it was finally complete. My cousins, Billy and Alyssa stayed up late that evening with us to help us organize and review our forms, thank goodness for their help. Tony and I were walking zombies by that point. We wanted to make sure there was absolutely zero errors. The very next morning I sent our documents to our agency and a few days later we received their approval. I remember that day like it was yesterday. We finally had a clear vision of our dream, our daughter Halainah. The wait time was unknown but we knew it was going to take years. Yes, it was a happy day the day our paperwork was finally sent in. But in the silence of late evenings I found myself crying over the fact that I may not be a mommy for several more years. Well here we are today, 1 year later and we have the most beautiful daughter I have ever seen, praise God. Halainah is my life and my world and I cannot wait to finally hold her in my arms and tell her how much she is loved and how long we waited to kiss her sweet lips. Below is a poem that I have held close to my heart. Halainah's adoption has been god's plan all along. She was written in my book by God. She was my daughter long before I saw her beautiful picture. I know in my heart that this journey will happen in His time, it is His plan. And we are to follow God's plan and not question it.


A child sat on Jesus' lap in the splendor of heaven.
The child asked, "Is it time?"
Jesus parted the clouds, looked and said, "No, not yet child."
The child asked "When will it be time?"
Jesus replied, "When lessons are learned, hardships endured, and loneliness lived, then it will be time."
Time passed. The child asked, "Is it time?"
Jesus parted the clouds, looked and said, "No, not yet child."
The child asked, "When will it be time?"
Jesus replied, "When maturity is reached, self-worth affirmed and spirits strengthened, then it will be time."
Time passed. The child asked, "Is it time?"
Jesus parted the clouds, looked and said, "Their love is strong and their hearts are open.
Yes, now it is time- Your parents are ready."
~author unknown